Waiting the worst with Harvey, the storm that won't go away

HOUSTON -- Michael Bedner saw disasters come and go during his 33 years with the Houston Police Department.

Harvey, however, just won't go away.

Bedner rides out every storm in his creekside community between Houston and Galveston Bay and never gets more than a few feet of water on the edge of his property before the sun comes out again.

With the water creeping up to his door Friday, he knew this time was different. A neighbor whisked him and his fiance to dry land on a jet ski.

Bedner is grateful to be safe, but "we have been trying to get back to the house every day, and we can't," he said Tuesday. "Not even the house, just our street. We just want to feel like we're home. But we can't.

"We're staying at the hotel, and everyone is just walking around like zombies. It's a helpless feeling."

The hunkering down part of a hurricane usually doesn't last this long. The wind calms; the clouds clear; the recovery begins.

As Harvey crippled the nation's fourth-largest city for a fifth straight day, millions were left wondering when it'll all be over and what will be left. For many, the fear and anxiety inspired by this behemoth storm have given way to fatigue and restlessness.

Carla Saunders stayed in her home of 15 years until she was awakened by water soaking into the bedding on which she was sleeping. She grabbed medication and a phone charger and waded through hip-deep water to her son's pickup truck.

She went to a shelter inside a high school, where she was given clothes and a hot meal, grateful never to have been separated from her beloved dogs.

That was Saturday.

Sunday came; with it, more rain. Then Monday, and more rain. Tuesday, still more. Feet and feet of rain, more than one U.S. storm ever has let fall.

"I feel really lost right now," she said, breaking into quiet sobs. "It's hard to know where to start in trying to move forward."

On Tuesday, Saunders got as close as she could to her house to check on the street. She said seeing her neighborhood so full of water, with still more rain to come, felt like a fresh wound.

"It was like the bottom fell out of my heart," she said.

Jack Bullman, 56, of Long Pine, sat with a blue towel hanging around his neck, looking soaked and tired at a shelter set up at the Lakewood Church. He said he lived on the coast most of his life and was used to flooding. But the duration of Harvey was a whole new experience.

"Usually a hurricane comes by, and you get hit with the surge and the rain, but here, it's lingered so long, there's no doubt that it will be catastrophic," he said, adding he'd just rebuilt last year after another flood. "All that hard work, right down the tubes."

Even those whose homes didn't flood weren't spared.

At the only restaurant in the area open Monday night, Will Bedner, Michael's son who lives in Houston, stuck his chin out and rubbed it -- it was stubbly.

"I wish I could shave," he said.

Since the storm began lashing Houston on Friday, stores had closed, including the ones selling razors. Bedner hadn't thought to stock up beforehand. Only the essentials; luxuries were overlooked.

The bar Bedner owns downtown lost power days earlier, so a cold drink from behind the counter was out of the question. He happily settled for one at room temperature.

"Everyone's getting cabin fever," he said.

Around the corner from Bedner's bar, Buffalo Bayou was overflowing, gurgling onto a stretch of road and lapping the trunks of partially submerged trees. A day or so before, its waters flooded Mark Serafin's basement, and he'd lost power. Tired of rationing rainwater he'd collected on his windowsill to flush the toilet, he'd checked into a hotel nearby. Then Tuesday, the hotel lost power.

"We're better off at home," he said.

"Compared to what other people are going through, it's an inconvenience," Serafin said. "But the depressing part is: then you go to bed at night, and you just hear these bands of rain. It just makes this seem even more desperate."