Ukraine's year of pain, death -- and also nation-building

KYIV, Ukraine -- In the final hours before the Russian onslaught, a last grasp at peace. Russian troops would soon pour across Ukraine's borders and Russian missiles would fill Ukrainian skies, taking Ukrainian lives in the biggest air, sea and ground assault in Europe since World War II. But Ukrainian President Volodymyr Zelenskyy still appealed, on war's brink, for reason to prevail.

Staring intently into the camera in a last-ditch, dead-of-night, video-recorded plea against the invasion, Zelenskyy warned Russia that the consequences would be "an abundance of pain, filth, blood and death."

"War is a huge calamity," Zelenskyy said, in what proved to be one of his last outings in a suit before his switch to military-style casual wear. "This calamity carries a huge cost -- in every meaning of this word."

The date was Feb. 24, 2022 -- cataclysmic for Ukraine, course-changing for Russia, history-shaping for the wider world. Every hour of every day since has proven those words to be right.

As milestones go, the invasion's first anniversary Friday is both grim and vexing. It marks a full year of killing, destruction, loss and pain felt even beyond the borders of Russia and Ukraine -- with war-related price shocks being just one example. But it also raises a question that is unsatisfying because it can't be answered at this partway point: How much longer until this stops?

A view of damaged radar arrays and other equipment Feb. 24, 2022, at the Ukrainian military facility outside Mariupol, Ukraine.Sergei Grits ~ Associated Press, file

A view of damaged radar arrays and other equipment Feb. 24, 2022, at the Ukrainian military facility outside Mariupol, Ukraine.Sergei Grits ~ Associated Press, file

"Not soon enough" might be one response, though any peace deal looks far off as Russia's invasion force meat-grinds into Year Two, with neither side close to reaching hoped-for objectives.

The misery of 365 days of bloodshed and the full scale of the global repercussions are difficult to sum up with mere words. Russia is more isolated than at any time since the Cold War. Western nations are banding together for Russian President Vladimir Putin 's defeat while also gambling that the ex-KGB spy won't go nuclear. China is filing away lessons that could be used against Taiwan.

And how to measure all the tears? How to adequately describe all the suffering and atrocities? Or even the broken heart of just one of the children who have lost loved ones and futures?

The numbers are dizzying: hundreds of thousands of Russian men escaping abroad to avoid being thrown into battle, millions of Ukrainians uprooted from their homes, tens of billions of dollars poured into weaponry that is making war ever-more lethal, trillions more dollars estimated lost for the global economy. And even those figures don't do justice to the human and economic costs.

Of the body count -- surely the most important tally, but kept under wraps by both sides -- all that can be said with certainty is that it is horrific. Western officials estimate it to be in the many tens of thousands and growing inexorably.

In this photo taken from video, Ukrainian President Volodymyr Zelenskyy addresses the nation Feb. 24, 2022, in Kyiv, Ukraine.Ukrainian Presidential Press Office via AP, file

In this photo taken from video, Ukrainian President Volodymyr Zelenskyy addresses the nation Feb. 24, 2022, in Kyiv, Ukraine.Ukrainian Presidential Press Office via AP, file

But Ukraine is still here. That in itself is a stinging defeat for the Kremlin. Putin seemingly believed his forces and secret services would have turned Ukraine into a puppet state by now. The invasion plan called for resistant Ukrainian officials to be liquidated, weeded out or flipped into collaborating, according to a British think tank's study based in part on captured Russian documents.

Instead, the threat of extinction as a free nation is pushing Ukraine into an ever-closer orbit with the European Union, the United States and the wider West -- the very outcome Putin wanted to avoid. Each additional delivery of NATO-standard weapons, the billions of dollars in other Western aid, and pledges to stand with Ukraine for "as long as it takes" are hard-wiring bonds that, in peacetime, might have taken many more years to build.

Ukraine, independent from the ex-Soviet Union only since 1991, has also grown in war as a nation. Fighting to remain Ukrainian has forced clarity about what exactly that means, sharpening the contours of national identity.

In what have become daily video addresses to share news from the fronts and boost morale, Zelenskyy sometimes wears black hoodies emblazoned on the front with the words, "I'm Ukrainian." Many more Ukrainians have joined the president in ditching Russian for Ukrainian as their primary language. Statues of Russians are also being torn down, street names are being changed and Russian history is being expunged from school textbooks.

Says Olena Sotnyk, a lawyer and former legislator: "Putin did for us something which nobody did. He helped us to become a free nation."

A woman walks past a burning apartment building March 13, 2022, after shelling in Mariupol, Ukraine.Evgeniy Maloletka ~ Associated Press, file

A woman walks past a burning apartment building March 13, 2022, after shelling in Mariupol, Ukraine.Evgeniy Maloletka ~ Associated Press, file

Abroad, too, Ukraine has won hearts and minds, evidenced by the blue-and-yellow flags flying from town halls and the foreign fighters and aid workers risking -- and sometimes losing -- their lives on Ukrainian battlefields pounded by shellfire into hellscapes hauntingly reminiscent of World War I.

"No one will ever confuse Ukraine and Russia (again)," says Mykhailo Podolyak, one of Zelenskyy's closest advisers. "No one will say, 'It is something over there, near Russia."'

Ukrainians argue that in resisting Putin, they've also done the world the favor of unmasking him as a cruel and dangerous foe. The Russian leader who bewitched George W. Bush ("I looked the man in the eye. I found him to be very straightforward and trustworthy," the then U.S. president said in 2001 ) and who was chauffeured on a golf cart through the gardens of Versailles Palace by France's president in 2017, has become a pariah to Western leaders. But others remain close with him, notably Chinese leader Xi Jinping.

Despite the failure to secure quick victory, Putin's grip on power remains firm, with protests quashed and most Russians seemingly rallied behind the war effort. Still, Russia is making previously unimaginable sacrifices.

In battle, Putin has increasingly had to turn to the mercenaries of the notorious Wagner Group, a private military company that has recruited fighters from prisons and tossed them into combat, with high casualty rates. Putin is also losing energy leverage over Europe as it veers away from Russian gas and most Russian oil. Russia's economy is laboring under Western sanctions. As Putin is boxed in, some fear he could lash out in new ways, perhaps resort to more nuclear saber-rattling or worse.

A child sleeps in an armchair as other stand around in a shelter during Russian shelling Feb. 24, 2022, in Mariupol, Ukraine.Evgeniy Maloletka ~ Associated Press, file

A child sleeps in an armchair as other stand around in a shelter during Russian shelling Feb. 24, 2022, in Mariupol, Ukraine.Evgeniy Maloletka ~ Associated Press, file

But history is written by war's victors. And at this point, the invasion's outcome is far from clear.

One of Putin's initial mistakes was trying to conquer a country the size of France with a force that Western estimates suggest was barely larger than the Allies' D-Day army in World War II. And the mission on June 6, 1944, was far narrower: assault five French beaches, opening the breach from which the Allies then pushed through Nazi-occupied Europe.

Putin is now throwing additional equipment and manpower at the problem of his own making, with 300,000 mobilized troops in his pipeline for a new offensive that Russia hasn't announced -- but which Western and Ukrainian officials say is already underway in eastern Ukraine.

"Don't be seduced by 'plucky little Ukraine,' because Russia is much bigger. It could just grind Ukraine out," cautions retired Air Marshal Edward Stringer, a former senior officer in Britain's Royal Air Force. "It could force Ukraine to run out of bullets by putting one Russian in front of every bullet until Ukraine runs out of bullets before Putin runs out of Russians."

Certainly, Podolyak says, time is not on Ukraine's side. Just the opposite.

A woman runs as she flees with her family across a destroyed bridge March 2, 2022, in the outskirts of Kyiv, Ukraine.Emilio Morenatti ~ Associated Press, file

A woman runs as she flees with her family across a destroyed bridge March 2, 2022, in the outskirts of Kyiv, Ukraine.Emilio Morenatti ~ Associated Press, file

"A protracted war is the slow death of Ukraine," he says. But the invasion's first anniversary, he insists, "means that we are on the right track."

"It means that we have a different Ukraine," he says. "It looks completely different."

So different that pre-invasion life is an ever-hazier memory. Back then, statues in the capital, Kyiv, hadn't disappeared behind walls of protective sandbags. People didn't need to fill bathtubs when air raid sirens sounded so they have water if Russian strikes knock out supplies. They didn't download phone apps that issue shrill alarms when Russian missiles and killer drones are en route.

And those same apps didn't have "Star Wars" actor Mark Hamill announcing when the danger has passed, reassuringly saying in his Luke Skywalker voice: "The air alert is over. May the force be with you." Surreal.

Sotnyk, the former legislator, recalls the panic that gripped her when Russia's missiles first started striking Kyiv a year ago. She called up her mother and ordered her to pack. Now Sotnyk knows better than to dash across town in an air raid.

"It's not like we became braver," she says. "We (just) became more aware of what does it mean -- 'war."'

Before the invasion, Feb. 24 hadn't been much of a mover and shaker as a date in world history. Then Prince Charles and Lady Diana announced their engagement on that day in 1981. Steve Jobs, co-founder of Apple, was born Feb. 24, 1955. In 1938, it was the launch day of the first nylon-bristle toothbrush, " Dr. West's Miracle Toothbrush."

But in 1920, in Germany, it was also the day that Adolf Hitler presented a 25-point platform for the new Nazi Party. Back then, Hitler's audience couldn't have known that his speech in a Munich beer hall would prove to be a step toward World War II. Had they guessed, would they have turned back?

Feb. 24, 2022, hasn't led to World War III -- not "yet," pessimists might add. But the past year was, as Zelenskyy forewarned, full of pain, filth, blood and death.

And ahead: a grim abundance of more to come.

Paris-based correspondent John Leicester has reported from more than two dozen countries for The Associated Press since 1993 and is on his third assignment in Ukraine since the invasion.

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